Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Wishful Thinking.



Monday, June 28, 2010

Rain On Me.

According to accuweather it's supposed to rain on my birthday (2nd July).

Oh please please please let it be so. It may make the day a little bearable :/

Summer is going so meh. Summer of 2010 was supposed to be a summer to remember, and right now it's NOWHERE near that. Sigh.

I love football. I hope Germany wins the whole thing.

Yayy. Two new followers: hi Saaleha and SaJ. :]

Sigh. Something's gotten into me. I get pissed off at every little thing. Sadness.

If anyone's willing to fund me to go to Boston they may email me at:


How're you all doing? How's Summer? Dying of the heat? Tsk.

And i'm outta here.

Friday, June 25, 2010

I Am The Light In The Dark :)

Ah. I'm finally done with Volunteer work. It feels GOOD.

I'm going to go catch up on sleep now.

So I'll leave you with this AWESOME song.

Spark by Amy McDonald

I think you'll love it as much as i do. :D

Shout out to my new followers: Zuha & Anuradha :)

Later peeps.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

I Have Lost My Ability To Write.

I just can't write.
I just can't.


Hahaha. Wtffff. I just realised my birthday is on FRIDAY. All this time I was thinking it was Wednesday. Weirdddd
Haha. Wtf. Birthday's suck. I mean it's just ANOTHER day. No big deal. I'm just one year closer to dying. ROFL. Who want to celebrate that?

Lifehouse's album, "Smoke & Mirrors" is amazing.

YAYYYY. Volunteering ends this Friday. Wooot.
I want to do an internship somewhere. I just don't know where. And I'm too lazy to bother, so HAH!

Yay. 2 more months of vacation. Woot. I like vacation even though they're boring the fuck out of me.

And I've realised that as much as I rant that I don't, I have some really awesome friends who even though get tired of me ranting don't say a word about it. And are genuinely concerned. Which is weird, cause I've never made an effort to make friends :S
Well no they don't. I just think they do. But I'm awesome, so what i say goes, right?
Actually no it doesn't. But hey it's MY blog.

Shout out to my three now followers: Maheen, AZ and Ducky! :)

I'M IN LOVE, I'M IN LOVE. No I'm not. I was just singing a song. Tsk.

But my German boys will win the whole thing. <3

So like, imma go party now or something.
Well not really, but you know ;)

This post SUCKSSSS.

Out homies.

Saturday, June 19, 2010


Thatta was fun-ish. Actually it wasn't. Khwaari thi. But the wind was awesome. And the long drives are awesome. And the other volunteers made me laugh like anything. So it was all cool.

I came home and slept for like 15 hours straight :P

Idk what to blog about. Life is SO boring. As boring as this post.

Also listen to:
It's amazing. <3

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I Can't Think Of A Title.

August Rush.
Awesome movie.
Must watch if you haven't already.
And the music is amazing :)

I'm obsessed with 90210 nowadays. Awesome show.

Besides that volunteer work and driving lessons are driving me crazy.
I wake up at 8 am everyday :/


No check out worthy guy at volunteer work. But they're all really funny, so it's all cool.
We're going to Thattha on Saturday. -_-
Nahin jaana mujhay. Buhat garmi ho gi :(

I haven't been blogging much :(
Just waiting around for volunteer work to end.
Plus, I'm not going to UK either.
So this summer basically sucks really.
I NEED something fun to happen.

A shout out to my two new followers: Zee & Najma! :)

Out peeps.

Monday, June 14, 2010


Why in the world did Facebook fucking block my IP?
Kiya Mazaak Hai?

And no, I'm not a loser who has nothing to do besides facebook.
I'm just bored, so keep your comments to yourself, tyvm.


Saturday, June 12, 2010

Shittiest Blog Post Ever.... But Whatever -_-

so like exams and stuff ended.
and i realise i have like nothing to do.
i just stare at the computer screen or watch tv or sleep. I sleep a lot. It's fun. Not really, but you know -_-

anyways. i'm too bored to blog :S
It sounds stupid but my mind aint working like :S
So like yeah :S

Anyways, i just heard the cover of Bad Romance by a guy, AND I AM IN LOVE WITH THAT SONG! Woo.

I have nothing else to say.
There is NOTHING going on
Except footie world cup. Yay. Germany, Australia & Mexico :D


Thursday, June 10, 2010

Fate Hates Me.

Just when everything is finally falling into place, life takes a turn and goes back to how it used to be: fucked up.


Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Who's Gonna Watch You Die?

What Sarah Said by Death Cab For Cutie.
And it came to me then that every plan
Is a tiny prayer to father time
As I stared at my shoes in the ICU
That reeked of piss and 409
And I rationed my breaths as I said to myself
That I’ve already taken too much today
As each descending peak on the LCD
Took you a little farther away from me
Away from me

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds
And I knew that you were a truth I would rather lose
Than to have never lain beside at all
And I looked around at all the eyes on the ground
As the TV entertained itself

‘Cause there’s no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes ‘round and everyone lift their heads
But I’m thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die

So who’s gonna watch you die? So who's gonna watch you die?

I think if you've ever sat outside of the ICU, watching someone you love being taken away from you a little every second, you'll be able to relate with what the song is saying.
Sitting in the waiting room; oblivious to your surroundings; only the thoughts of that person clouding your mind; praying, hoping they'll be fine.

I still remember you, cuz, like it was only yesterday when we were laughing our heads off.
It feels like yesterday when we were arguing about football, you teasing me, all the sleepovers, the random games and stupid fights.

I know you're in a better place now.
R.I.P. cuz.

I love the meaning of this song, and the feeling it is sung with, enough to give someone goosebumps. Everytime I listen to it, it feels like I'm transported back to that day, and all the memories come rushing back as i'm caught in a whirlwind of feelings.

On a much more happier note:
2 exams left.
And one's just MCQ's on Friday. And that's just revision.
So the party is gonna begin soooooooon. :)

I go now.
Take care homies!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Dear Mr. President

I just heard this song after SUCH a long time, and i'd like to dedicate it to our "esteemed" president.
So here it is:
Dear Mr. President by Pink.

Dear Mr. President,
Come take a walk with me.
Let's pretend we're just two people and
You're not better than me.
I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?
Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?
What do you feel when you look in the mirror?
Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye
And tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
No child is left behind?
We're not dumb and we're not blind.
They're all sitting in your cells
While you pave the road to hell.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?
And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?
I can only imagine what the first lady has to say
You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Minimum wage with a baby on the way
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Building a bed out of a cardboard box
Let me tell you 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work
You don't know nothing 'bout hard work
Hard work
Hard work

How do you sleep at night?
How do you walk with your head held high?
Dear Mr. President,
You'd never take a walk with me.
Would you?

Seriously. This relates to Zardari SO much.
He's such an asshole.
And if you're a PPP supporter, you don't fucking scare me.
He's an asshole and nothing's gonna change that.

3 exams left. Woooooo -__-
3 days left for the worldcup. OMGGGG



I have an exam tomorrow. -_-
Nahin parhna mujhay.

I've already started having nightmares about the olevel result :/
Life is sad :/

There are SO many movies I have to watch in the holidays.
11th hurry the fuck up.

I need to stop procrastinatinggggg.
It's so hottttttt.

Rafa Nadal is hot :D

I go now.
Bye peepz.

Monday, June 7, 2010

A-D-D M-A-T-H-S. That's How I Spell SCREWED.

This is it. I'm screwed. I hate add maths. I will never learn to like it. I will never learn how to solve all the shit we have to solve. Why do we even study it? It's not like i'll ever be stuck on an island.... actually even if i was, i would never have to do integration or take out the relative velocity of a plane, so seriously, why?

To study or not to study. That's not the question. The answer is Simple, study or get fucked.

There's around 9 hours left in the paper. Fuck this shit. Now's a good time to start freaking out. Sigh.

I'm listening to this gay weird song by Miley Cyrus. Somebody seriously kill me. Add Maths does that to me. Yeah. -_-

I blame myself. Why did i ever take up add maths? Why?

*hums along to weird song*

Oh yeah. Reading Pixie's latest blog made me think about him again. Not that i still like him, but he was one of my best friends :/

I went to the British Council today. They gave me a bag full of stuff, which included a mug and lots of awesome ball point pens. They should have given me the paper as well -_-
Better yet. I should have stolen it. Tsk.

:( i'm scared. I seriously don't know anything. Screwed i am. :/

Oh God. Save me. I've always been a good girl. Well most of the time. :/ actually very less. But still. I mean you're All Powerful and i gave it my best. Just help me. Please.

I go now.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

I Don't Need That Kind Of Happy Anymore!

I am totally in LOVE with this song nowadays.

"and i don't need that kind of happy, the kind that takes you up and brings you down." (8)

The rain last night was amazing. The weather is SO gorgeous. How am i expected to study for exams with such awesome weather? Sigh.
I sympathise with everyone who is stuck studying inside with this amazing weather outside :(

Listen to:
Faithfully by Journey.
Most amazing love song ever.
Makes me cry :)

Tomorrow is a major day for me. Details later, if everything works out :D

I don't know addmaths -.-

I'm totally crushing on my brother's friend. -.-
He's so hot. Sigh. Too bad he's gay. -.-
Gay guys are hot!
Proof: ADAM LAMBERT. 'nuf said

I'm losing it.
*mutters to self* snap out of it rahima...

Anyways. I want more rain.
I hope my centre gets drowned in the naala right next to it and our remaining exams are cancelled and they automatically give us A*'s for them. Haha. Yeah right -.-

I stood in my balcony all night, stayed awake till 5 am, watching the rain pour down. It was lovely. Rain is inspiring :)

I'm sick of people having relationship issues. I love my friends, BUT I DO NOT WANT THEM TALKING TO ME ABOUT THEIR BOYFRIENDS. There's far more interesting stuff. Like watching grass grow. Ooo. And NO, I am not being bitter. Or jealous. I don't want a boyfriend. Really -.-
I'm already married to Aaron Ramsey :D
I'm kidding.
But still -.-

I'm hungry. :D
I just had fries :D
*sticks tongue out at ducky*

My braces are pissing me off.
I can't wait till i get them off.

Justin Bieber is so weird.
But his song "baby" is so addicting, it's not even funny :|

I don't know what to blog about but i still will, 'cause i don't want to study -.-

Relatives are annoying. Yeah -.-

I go now.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

My Brother Has The Best Sister :D

It's Raining!!
Happiness. Love. :)

Happy Bday Bro. Ily! :D

Friday, June 4, 2010



4 exams left. *parties*


Also. I found out 2 days ago, that it is a VERY small world. :O
True Story :P